It's been several weeks since my last posting, I have to admit each time I sat down to write something the screen remained blank. I couldn't think of a thing to say that didn't feel contrived. I want this blog to be real and honest, not a way for me to throw a random dialysis joke your way. And to be truthful things have been "normal" for the past for weeks. Oh "normal" you say, what the heck is that. I am certainly living anything but a "normal" life. Well actually I am. Let me elaborate...
There is no such thing as "normal" I hate to break it you. Normal is a 5 letter word that we give way too much credit to. Everyday is "normal" if you rise up in the morning and lie down at night. That's where it begins and ends. We all have a different opinion or understanding for what is "normal". So how can something so different be the same for everyone?
For me this is "normal": 3 days a week for 4 hours I go to dialysis and now that my fistula is doing the job for which it was intended, I get 2 large needles in my arm for treatment. On my 2 off days, I walk, or do yoga, take care of my family, talk on the phone, shop, cook, clean, go on Facebook. Oh am I boring you, yes me too. (insert yawn) at this point it is pretty boring. I guess you can even say it's "normal".
Why are we so concerned with what is "normal" there really is no such thing. I guess we can say mundane, routine, predictable but that sounds kind of lame right? So we focus on what "normal" SHOULD be. What SHOULD it be? Well, frankly, mundane, routine and predictable. For now "normal" is good. Nothing out of the ordinary or scary or challenging or overwhelming is in my way. It's true you can adjust to anything and for now I'll take it.
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